miss hyme ♥

recently quite busy .. cos common test .. & finally , common tests ended ! relax a few days den have to start workin again le .. hahas .. now .. i get mood swings quite often .. sometimes happy , sometimes emo ..
there was once mdm syarifah told me in sms .. " things happen for a reason . it teaches u tat things tat happen can really affect one's concentration but it depends on one's determination to move forward as life have to go on no matter wad happen . it will only make u a stronger person . "
hmm i understand wad she says but .. emotions are difficult to control . i really wan to cry out .. but i don dare to .. sometimes , i really don understand myself n my thinkin .. i noe i have to forget e unhappy past , but it's not as easy .. onli by forgettin e past , den i can live e present n future .. but with tat very deep wound , it would take long to heal .. i wan to forget about those unhappy stuffs too , and lead a happy life .. but things happen , and it affects me .. i don noe how to comfort myself or guide myself .. sometimes when i need someone to talk to or someone hu can listen , they're not there ..
hmm next week i will have something up .. but i don wish to mention it .. i don wan my mum to accompany me .. i don wan her to worry for me .. but frens tell me to ask my mummy along .. cos of certain reasons .. but i realli don noe .. haix ..
this few days played netball with frens .. i did laugh n smile .. but i don noe my heart .. i don noe am i onli puttin on a mask ..

realli miss hyme alot .. wad if one day i can't love u anymore ? wad if we don last ?

really happy ? sad ? emo ? i have no idea ..