tough days ahead .. findin back e cheerful me ..

hmm todae is my chi common test .. im determined to do better for e subsequent papers ..
but at e same time , scared things tat happen recently would affect my performance .. which alrd did so for eng n chi .. i need to jiayous ! days ahead would be tough .. common tests .. family .. studies ..
and most importantly , i wan to find back e cheerful me ..
which Faris had told me , " there is always a smile hanging on you . "
i wan to smile again , lik last tyme .. i don wan to be emo anymore ..
i noe it would be hard .. but i don wan ppl ard me , esp hyme to wry so much ..
n i wan ppl to stop sayin im EMO !! hahas ..
girls are born emotionally .. sometimes , i really think tat my classmates brighten up my day .. by their lame jokes in class .. frankly sayin , i enjoy being in sch more den being at home ..
i can't find a topic to talk about at home .. in sch .. my frenz , teachers listen n care ..
i noe my mummy n kor care .. but at e sight of my father , it realli reminds me of many unhappy stuffs tat happen last time ..
i noe i have to forgive n forget .. but when i want to forgive , he does something which makes me hate him again .. i jus can't forget wad he has done in e past .. even e present .. i jus can't bury e hatred in me .. he's left a deep scar in my heart ..

--- nothing u do can heal e wound u caused me ---