hell0s ! i'm back from church !
morning woke up at 7 , went to prepare ..
went to meet jasmine at control station ..
bused to church , worshipped and went down for collection of donations ..
today , is just a day with happy and sad stuffs ..

happy :
there's someone from the church who donated 50 dollars to me ! so happy , thank you mr. peter !
so happy ~! he could see from my expression .. hahas ..
so , i have 94 dollars in my donation card now .. got to give it to teacher tomorrow ..
( so far , only one happy stuff )

sad :
many things happened recently ..
i'm not alright at all , i know it ..
cried to slp yest night ..
lots of things are just going through my mind ..
think i really need alot of time to get over that problem ..
i don't want to think , but it just comes to me ..

i'm falling out .. really feel like leaving the clique ..
i'm not being petty nor am i complaining ..
but i just can't take it anymore !
don't even know a single thing , the feeling really **** ..
i feel very sad , so outcasted ..
aren't we friends ? what's the harm of telling me ?
is it because i seldom hang out with you all , thus resulting in this ?
creating the problem myself ?
if this is really the reason , then be it ..
it's enough ..
i have my freedom to choose who i want to hang out with ..
or is it because you all don't trust me enough ?
i really want to know why ..
was it my fault ? what's wrong ?

feeling so stressed ..
what's wrong ?!??
everything's falling out ..

how did things turn out this way ..
emo-ed ;
am i not worth to be trusted ?
there's a limit to everything , i have'd enough ..
broke down , cry - emo ..
a better tomorrow !