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thank you mr thomas and dear for being my listening ear .. listening to what i say and gave advice ^^ thanks alot !
i'll listen to the advice the both of you gave ..
common thing is to ignore those comments ..
as long as i know i didn't mean it , it doesn't matter if those comments are heard ..
like what thomas said , " once you know that person's name , you can never forget . " makes sense though .. even if i forget it a at point of time , i'll still be able to recall after a certain period .
hate can't stay as forever ..
i'll learn , to ignore ..
don't want to take some things so seriously anymore ..
not very worth my fret and sadness over it ..
i'm sure i hadn't changed , i know this best myself ..
if i really have changed , it would be my thinking .. cos' i'm in the process of seeing a larger picture of certain things ..

once again , thank you to the both of you ^^
and thomas , last long ! ( glad for you ^^ )

love ♥