don't bother to read , spoils ur mood ..

hell0s .. i always want to start my post with a happy greeting ..
but ..
i'm so not in the right mind , right mood , right condition now ..
today is the first day of school , what i can say is that i'm not prepared , something wrong with me today .. i tried my best to smile , to laugh , to talk .. i don't want show the dark side of me on the first day of sch ..
things don't go well .. kept feeling frustrated over certain stuffs ..
i'm angry at homeworks given , although there is only one today , and simple ..
i'm angry at lessons .. i guess i'm just angry with myself ..
am i stress ? i hope not .. what's happening to me ?! i have to study for 2 more yrs , and here i am , don't know why the hell i'm feeling this way ..
after sch , i went home .. bath-ed and started revision ..
my mind can't work .. i'm feeling very very tired , stress .. feel like crying damn lots of time .. feel so useless , so hopeless ..
i don't know how to start on my revision schedule ..
there's many things i want to say , but my mind is so blank !
something happened just now .. tears welled up in my eyes .. i don't know what to do , what to say , how to respond ..
haix .. felt like doing something stupid just now , but i know it wouldn't help ..
i hate myself for being so stupid .. why isn't my mind working when it should be ?!
why is this happening ??
maybe i should try studying again at night .. i don't want to ruin my schedule ..
maybe i'm just tired and stress out ..
pls jiayous ..

break down and cry ..

why do u think in that way ..