disheartened to continue ..

hell0s ..
this post will be edited again later .. hahas ..
yest , i gave up , once again ..
i attempted poa homework yest .. i looked at 1 qn for half an hour .. tried many ways to solve it , but the ans is still wrong .. i felt so sad , angry and disappointed with myself ..
felt like crushing or tearing the paper , but of cos' i didn't do that ..
i really felt so disheartened i gave up ..
i know it's not right to give up ..
so , i thought through , i'll try again when i study in dec.
if i really can't , then i'll start working hard when sch reopens next yr ..
really have to tell myself not to slack anymore ..
i know where i want to go and what i want to do in future ..
so for now , i'll just enjoy till second week of dec.
i learnt my lesson , study first then comes enjoyment ..
so , in future , i'll finish my homework first , then enjoy ..
esp when it comes to long sch holidays ..

my bro has gone to work recently .. been thinking of finding jobs too ..
but i think i'll still stick to what i think would be best ..
i'll work after my " O's " ..
now is not the time to work , i'll just concentrate on my studies ..
get good results , a proper cert and a good future for myself ..

i'll stop here for now .. wait for the other post ! hahas .. byebyes !

ain't letting it pull me down ..