i missed you so much , i almost cried .

second post , i'm bored , so just blog ! hahas ..
posted in priv. blog just now .. teared while posting ..
can't imagine the life .. haix ..
been a long time since i typed " haix .. " , i'm trying not to show my unhappy emotions here ..
not sure if i can do it .. hahas ..
currently listening to the song , " never say never " ..
the part that sings " don let me go ... " , i feel kind of secured ..
but would things change after that 2 yrs ? i hope not ..
recently listening to some songs .. there's a few though .. reminded me of 160307 ..
not much feeling when i'm listening to it .. but i still feel kind of sad ..
why did i have to do that .. it hurt you so much , hurt me to see you that way ..
would we still turn out fine if i hadn't done that ? or would we go separate ways ?
though it's alrd long since it happened , but i would still want to apologise to you ..
i'm sorry ..
pains me to see you hurt so deep , though i was the one who initiated it ..
pains me to see you walk in the heavy rain that day ..
pains me to know that you're crying every night ..
i still rmb every little detail of things that happened during that period of time ..
recalled of that day when you walked me to my friend's blk , and hugged me so tightly from the back before i go ..
the times that we were so uncertain .. i'm sorry that i was so foolish ..
i'm glad you stayed by my side during those times , glad you didn't go ..

now i'm reminded of everything back then .. that wed. when i was sec 1 ..
raining so heavily , under that blk ..
teared and hugged me even though i was wearing uniform ..
thanks for everything ..

i really miss you alot , iloveyoo ..