i hope ;

hell0s ! i guess i'm alright now ..
alright from yest's incident .. it's the first time in my 15 yrs of life i got really angry with someone .. seriously , i didn't know i could shout at someone without crying after that ..
i did teared yest after i shout , that was because i felt very at lost , like i lost my mind .. after that , i just sat down on the floor , staring at the comp.
that guy is really good at complaining to my father , an adult who acts like a little kid ..
stepped over the line & that's what you'll get ..
i forget things that made me unhappy quite easily , but i'll never forget who made me felt that way and how it happened ..
and i'm sorry to a few ppl , whom chatted with me on msn yest , that i didn't talk to them ..

well , i really hope that things won't come crashing down again , now .. not at this time please ..
so agitated yest , but it was a good thing i was able to keep a little calm , if not i'd have took the knife and stabbed it right into him .. i know it's wrong to solve things that way .. but i guess he really triggered something inside me that made me so furious ..
maybe someone was right , " if a child grew in a violent family , he/she will turn violent one day too . " i'm really trying my best to prevent myself from being violent , i know i can do it , but i'll need time to manage it ..
things were really ' sot ' yest .. first , my phone . second , my comp. third , my tv ..
i don't know if i'm really alright , cos i feel that i aren't .. it doesn't feel good to shout at someone ..
i feel so .. haix .. mixed feelings once again ..
i feel like , dying .