i just can't stop this thinking ..

hell0s ! had cca exp today , lots of sec 1 ! wish they would consider joining ^^ reached home at 6 plus , my old injury is hurting again , and my shoulder feels numb ! think i walked too fast during HL .. reached home , went to bath then went online .. finished part of my eng homework , there's still argumentative compo plus amath ! today , i actually stayed back in class during recess for awhile , to complete my amath corrections ! was tempted to go for recess , but i had a guilty feeling , so i stayed and did my corrections .. feel satisfied ! hahas ..

had this really BAD feeling recently .. thus i got no mood to do anything else .. i don't feel like going out with anyone .. fortunately , this feeling has not affected my studies so far .. i hope it doesn't too .. i'm trying hard not to think , to stay positive .. but this feeling has been haunting me for 3 days .. i had this dream for this feeling too , as in i dreamt of what i am feeling right now .. i'm just afraid that my dream would come true .. cos' very often , my dreams come true .. i've dreamt it twice alrd , i really hope that it's not a signal that ... i don't want anything bad to happen ..

mum has been sick for 8 days , i'm so worried for her .. father told her off yest morning .. i suddenly felt or realised that she has sacrificed a lot for my family .. her time , which includes her sleeping time , her health and money she earned that she should be spending some on clothes she wants .. not just for us , but herself .. so , i've saved some money .. at the end of the month , i'll give her part of it .. reason being she has not much money left after paying all the rent and phone bills etc. so i would want to give her part of my savings , so she can buy stuffs she like .. and good news ! i've gotten back my class photos 09' ! hahas ..

i shall stop here for now , byebyes ! ( don't assume things . )

mixture of feelings ..
take the race , run it & finish the race .