never ending exams .

hell0s ! it has been 9 days since i posted , almost forgot how to post .. hahas ..
didn't post because i was busy studying for my MYEs !
i did switched on the comp sometimes but for a little while .. hahas ..
exams are never going to end , until we die .
in schools , we have exams to test our understanding ..
in life , our daily life , we get tested on different situations .. hahas ..
anyway , exams were all right , confident ! ^^
i'm still left with POA paper to clear , all the way ~!
i just completed all the revision papers that teacher gave ! yays !
continuing with revision tomorrow ~! there's something wrong with me today , so careless ..
yays , i'm going to fall sick after monday ..
hahas , pushed myself too much ..
i know that cos' for the past 2 days , the weather was so hazy , i just recovered from cough and cos' of the weather , the virus came back to me ..
something worst than that , i keep seeing double and blur ! felt dizzy too , like i can faint anytime ..
hahas , i'm happy that i didn't give on doing amath , kept telling myself to stay calm and i can do it ! i did it ! ^^ hahas ..
not going to slack much after exams either , cos' i'm going to revise for my emath prelim ~~
jiayous !
seriously , i have been slacking far too much for semester 1 , so i'm going to make sure i don't slack so much in semester 2 , crucial period !
reminds myself : " i have to get promoted to sec 5 successfully ! "
ok , enough about studies , hahas ..
oh yes , before i forgot , i made a deal with my mum !
if i get 55% and above for my overall percentage , she would sponsor me half the amount for a camera ~! hahas ..
move on , move on .

have been thinking about lots of things recently ..
i've regretted , i don't know what's the next move i should take .
if i take that step , would i regret again ?
if i don't take that step , would i live to regret ?
i really haven't got my ans , i know i haven't got over it ..
but i know for sure , if i take that step , we'll never be the same like before , what was done cannot be changed , we cannot change the past , but we can change the future .
recently , i thought through , reflected ..
i have really made a few wrong choices , it's not too late to turn back , but how to ?
well , only i know how to ..
feeling down , sudden drop of mood ..
not now , but will happen when i don't expect it to happen .
why did i have to do that ? what got into me ? why am i regretting now ? was it worth it ? why do i have to let ppl affect me ? why didn't i think thrice ?
everything seems to be messed up now , i don't know for whatever reason i did that ..
there's still a month left for me to think through , but i want to get my ans asap !
maybe i was wrong , maybe you were wrong ..
maybe i was right , maybe you were right .
what am i supposed to do now ?
relationship stuffs , i'm not letting go afterall ..
meimei was right , why let go when both parties love each other ? why let that 3 yrs plus go to waste ?
thanks a lot !
yes , why should i let go of someone who truly loves me ..
i wonder what's wrong with me these few days , super emotional ..
maybe i've been thinking too much ..
i wonder to you , if i ever crossed your mind ..

i think only meimei knows what i'm talking about , hahas ..
shall stop here , byebyes !

do you still think about us , the past ?
i know i'm still thinking , i'm still missing , just to tell you - i haven't got over it .