frustrations :(

heys ! things are not going well for me , mentally and emotionally ..
i have no idea why i'm so easily frustrated nowadays .. is it cos' of the stress ? is it cos' i feel drained mentally ? i really don't know ..
it's so torturing ..
i feel frustrated when my mum talks to me , i feel frustrated for no reasons .. haix ..
i feel like i've lost myself .. i'm no longer interested in studying , i feel like quitting sch nowadays ..
everything in the family is making me lose hope , lose myself .. i just feel like ignoring everything , everyone ..
one minute i'm ok , the other minute i'm like crazy .. i really don't like this feeling at all .. but i seriously don't know how to make myself feel better ..

i feel so tired .. vulgarities , jealousy , insecurity .. i don't like to be left alone by you ..
how alone i felt when i sat there alone , while the others was with their dates ..
how scary it feels to be with so many guys ..
remember the haircut incident ? when there were only guys in the room ..
i told you before right .. but i guess you forgot ..
there were girls , but i don't even know them !
i felt like walking away ..
i really shouldn't have gone with you .. so many unhappy things happen ..
where's your respect for me ? you didn't spare a thought for me when you said that to your friends too ..
wonder why you left me alone when i was feeling frustrated .. haix ..
i don't think i left you alone when you were frustrated ..
promises , do you really mean it when you made the promise ? or was it just to please me ?

is it just me ? is it my mind ? or is it you ?
i really don't know ..