haix .. i'm just feeling so down .. have been feeling weird since i woke up today .. just now was writing inside a book .. then i suddenly felt like crying .. i feel so vexed .. don't have the mood to do anything at all .. i didn't revise today .. i copied the GB commands then polished boots .. but i feel as if my heart is not in me .. where's the feeling ? i guess i need time .. i was reading a book just now . it made me think of my family .. crushed down .. i feel like crying , but i don't want my mother to know that i'm feeling sad .. she kept asking me today , " u feeling sad ? y are u feeling sad ? " i have a lot to say .. i want to cry .. but the words just can't come out of my mouth .. if i cry , the tears will flow non-stop .. got the feeling of wanting to end everything now .. things are just not right .. the feeling is not right too .. what happened ..

i don't know why ..