i feel so empty deep down .
first day without him ..

hell0s ! back to post ..
met yuanlong at 1pm just now , i went to eat lunch , then trained to dhoby ghaut ..
shopped at plaza sing. , bought my shampoo .. hahas ..
then kaiquan called ..
in the end , never meet up , never watch .. so sorry !
then yuanlong and i trained back to woodlands ..
went to mini toons , bought 2 cute little things .. 4 for $10 ..
shared with yuanlong .. hahas ..
then went to john little , metro .. the perfume is nice ! hahas ..
went back after that , and now i'm here posting ..

today is the first day without him ..
there were many times today , i slided my phone , thought of messaging you ..
wanted to ask what you were doing and to tell you i miss you ..
or times when i looked at my phone for your msg ..
but suddenly , i remembered you were not in s'g .. haix ..
dear , if by any chance , you come to my blog ..
i would like to tell you that , i missed call you cos' i miss you ..
it wouldn't fail for me to look at my phone every 30 mins , think of you every 30 mins , or even less than that ..
everywhere i go , my mind is thinking of you ..
when i was on the bus to causeway , i thought of you .
even when i was still at home watching final desination , i suddenly thought of you ..
when i was eating lunch , i thought of you ..
when i was on the train , i thought of you ..
when i was shopping ard , i thought of you ..
when i was on the bus back home , i thought of you ..
you're so close , yet so far ..
i looked to the jetty , wondered if i could see where you were ..
but i know it's impossible , but i just wanted to know you were there ..

as i typed this post , tears are rolling down ..
back in my own hse , where no one knows i'm crying ..
i really miss you so much .. i wish that the time would pass faster ..
only when you're gone , i realised she doesn't matter much to me .. i'm sorry .

byebyes .

never failing to think of you every few mins .
no one to msg with me whole day long , no one to send me night msg , no one to msg with me til i fall asleep ..

didn't have the mood to edit .