i never want to cry for you , ever again .

what is wrong with you ?! 6th day , aren't you tired ?
why do you have to question me so much the moment i come home from my cip at library ? you don't even trust me , so DON'T BOTHER TO ASK ! why are you still asking ?!
can't my friend call me ? can't i go out with my friend ?!
you know why i always stay out till so late and come home only after 7pm ? ( even when there's school the next day . ) you don't even know how i feel ! i actually planned to go home early on next tues , but i think i changed my mind ! i don't want to see you !
why are you so against me ?! have you ever thought of how i feel when you scold me , or when you don't trust me ?!
i just realised i really can't put the past behind , you still dare to mention abt that f.king woman you brought home ! saying she lend you $8000 right ? go back to her , go to her grave and sleep with her then !
you never know how i feel , you never try to understand me at all .
i don't see a need to help you understand me , what's the use ?
know what ? i felt like jumping down the building , but i know that's selfish .
i could only cry and cry , don't know for what .
i wished i would die from loss of blood or that my veins would break from slashing .
i really wish i could just run out and get knocked down by a car and put an end to my life .
you're driving me crazy !!
i don't want to cry because of you , ever again ! even if you die .
don't apologise on your death bed , it's too late .
because of you , i feel like giving up on everything . if you die , i would make sure you feel thousand times of the hurt you've caused us .
the past will always be haunting me , i just can't forget how you treated us .
why is it always money that you speak of ? if money is so important to you , then go and die ! so ppl will be burning incense paper money to you ! or go be an old wimp !
don't blame me for this nasty words , you deserve it .
everything is other ppl's fault . you're always in the right . saying that ppl do not have their brains to think , what about you ?
you think i'm still a kid who doesn't know how to think ?
i guess i'm way better than you , at least i know what is right and wrong ! at least i don't gamble !
i don't know what we did to deserve this .
to my dear father , what goes ard comes ard .
i hate you ! you said you didn't let down on anyone ? what abt that woman you brought home when i was 4 ?! you only think for yourself and not others - brainless .
everything is too late now .

I HATE YOU !!