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hell0s ! i'm not on MIA status alrd , due to some reasons , some stuffs which i have to settle online .. hahas , it shall be a secret ! so don't ask ! hahas ..
maybe i'll reveal it someday ~! most of it is settled alrd , now ...
but well , i said i would do my homework .. so of cos' , i'll do it ! but i don't think i can finish it by 22 dec ? i'll try my best ! ^^
never-ending problems , i don't know ..

anyway , this post is once again dedicated to TAY BOON SIONG !
dear , imissyou a lot ! but i'm glad i'm seeing you tomorrow for your appt ! =D
i need you dear .. i want to hugg you tightly tomorrow ..
you know , i've been telling you the problems recently .. i really wished you were here instead .. what about you ? do you feel troubled ?
i really feel like giving up .. i get hurt easily , i feel like i'm going to lose my mind ..
it hurts because i love too much , i care too much ..
but that's not the point .. it just hurts ..
really wish you were here to hugg me to slp , tell me everything's ok , stroke my hair , wipe my tears .. tell me to stop crying , tell me you're here for me .. tell me that even if they don't love me , you will ..
tell me that you'll always be with me ..
i know she loves me .. but everytime it happens , i just get reminded of the past and feel like giving up again ..
i don't know why i've become so weak .. or is it just me thinking too much ?
i don't know how to forget about the past .. but i just keep moving on ..
but whatever it is , i'm glad that we could contact more this few days .. at least i can turn to you .. imissyou ~
sometimes , little words and actions said and done by you hurts me ..
maybe cos' i think too much .. but it's ok dear , cos' i know you don't mean it ..

dear , we've been together for 3yrs plus , we've gone through so much .. ups and downs ..
iloveyou for staying by my side all these while and never giving up on me .. it hurts the both of us when we quarrel .. remember how we used to quarrel on msn and we'll be feeling so hurt and crying by ourselves ? hahas ..
remember when we said " haix .. i go off le .. " and all those words of anger when we quarrel ?
i guess i used to be quite impulsive in the past , i ' like ' to stir up a quarrel btw us .. but after that i get hurt , i hurt you , i cry and you cry .. then everything's fine again .. hahas ..
iloveyou dear !
those good and sweet memories , i'll remember them forever in my heart ..
i can nv forget the first time you hugged me , which was that wed when it was raining and we were under the blk oppo Qi Hua Pri ~ ♥
there are a lot of memories we both share , i remember a lot of them .. do you remember ?
it's ok if you don't remember all of it , cos' i'm here to help you remember ! hahas ..
i used to mind that i wasn't your first girlf , i wasn't the first to hold your hand , i wasn't your first kiss , i wasn't the first girl you hugged ..
i am your 4th girlf ! and you're my 2nd boyf ! but you're my first true love ! happy happy ?? hahas ..
dear , i would like to be your last girlf , the last girlf you hold hand with , the last girl you kiss with , the last girl you hugg ..
i want to be your last ! but i'm greedy ! so i want to be in your top 2 priority list ! family first ! ^^
it's ok if i'm not your first , but it'll also not be ok if i'm not your last ! I WANT TO BE YOUR LAST !! remember this ! hahas ..
it's ok if you're not my first , but it'll also not be ok if you're not my last ! I WANT YOU TO BE MY LAST !! iloveyou ♥
cya tomorrow dear ! goodnight ♥!

YYAZN ;