to : my dearest boyf ♥

hell0s dear !
by the time you read this , i'm alrd at the campsite ..
actually i don't really feel like going , due to the bad experience in the past .. but cos' this is my last year in GB , so i chose to go .. hahas ..
but by choosing to go , it means i won't have much time to be with you this weekend ..
anyway dear , when you booked out on tues cos' of MC and you saw those messages with that guy ( shall not mention name ) , i guess you felt jealous and a little insecure ?
you didn't say anything , but i felt it ..
i'm not sure if i'm right or not ..
i admit that waiting is torturing , i've only waited for 4 mths , there's still another 1.5 yr more to go ..
but dear , no matter how torturing it is , how saddening it is everytime you have to leave for your book in again , i will still wait ..
everytime i see couples , i think of us , i envy the time they have tgt .. everytime i see guys in smart 4 , i think of you ..
it's torturing to miss you so much , to have to wait for the weekends to come so i can see you again ..
but i guess through waiting , i've learnt to treasure the time we have .. we can only meet during the weekends , 2 out of 7 days .. sometimes even 1 out of 7 days ..
so i really want to be a better girlf for us , cherish the time we have tgt , spend it happily instead of feeling unhappy cos' of something or somebody else ..

you told me about your job scope while you were walking me home just now ..
you told me about the duty and the last few weeks of trainings , confinement ..
jiayous dear ! i guess i should be ok with the confinement .. but you must give me a big hugg when you come out !! >.<=p there are a lot of things i want to say , so the post will be quite long ~ hahas ..

i just want you to know that i'm very happy that i have you as my boyf ! yes , i'm tired of holding on .. not that i want to give up , not that i'm tired of you ..
but i just don't want us to walk away from each other anymore .. i know i've tried to walk away for a few times and i know it hurts a lot , i'm sorry dear ..
please don't say you want to walk away anymore dear ..
and i'm really sorry for always quarrelling over trivial matters :(
i don't know why i'm upset , i don't know why we're quarrelling ..
just being with you , i feel happy .. and i don't feel stress ! hahas ..

dear , i think i'm falling for you deeper and deeper ! every day ! >.<=p iloveyoo many many ! hahas ♥ 1 year from now , i'll be loving you still .. 4 years from now , i'll still be loving you .. 6 years from now , i'll be loving you still and then i want to be with you forever ! ♥ years down the road , i'll still be loving you and i'll still choose to be with you ! ♥♥ know why i'm so certain ? cos' i have alrd made my choice ! ♥♥♥ iloveyoo forever & always dear ! cya soon ! take cares =D

my source of happiness comes from you !